fReNsHiP vS LoVe

iM sO dEpReSsEd tOdAe...

no replies frm her at all. whole dae, whole nite oreadi.

wAt sHLd i Do?

jUx So VeXeD, DePrEsSeD n CoNfUsEd. .

wAt aM i Supp To dO?

i was tellin angela, it feels like im suffering frm a breakup. . or maybe worse than dat. .

e kinda feeling where u wana cry but cant cry out

dUn FaiL tIs TeSt

to u, i may be wrong. . to me, there's not much of a wrong in it. . to them, there' mite be alil fault in me. . but not so much. . to e guys, i mite be a bitch. .

but i jux nid to noe ur honest tots. . even if its on a plain selfish tot. . at least i noe of an answer, n i noe wat to do nxt. . simply bcox u r one of moi dearest fren. . no matter wat, i will bite moi teeth n respect watever u feel u wan tings to be. . i jux nid an answer frm u . .

i haf answered so many questions of urs. . but u havent answered mine. . so i dunwana further answer anymore till u answer moi most crucial question. .

lk. . even if u dun like him, but u wana kip him as a possession. . tell me .. i nid to noe before i make moi nxt move. .


there are so many tings i nid to tell u y tings turned out liek dat but ure not ready to listen. . n dats y i said initially, i will onli tell u when time is right. . but i knew i cldnt wait till then cox it will onli make tings worse. . so here i am . . e usual big mouth when it comes to moi own matters. .

i dunoe. . i realli duno hw tis time. . i jux dunwana tis 10 over yrs of frenship to jux fall. . n IM DEFINITELY NOT LIKE JENICE SAW ok. .

if u tink i was, u were too! it's jux e same ting like u, dexter n i. . u didnt even tell me anyting even when it was before moi bdae. . when u knew it. . n i had to hear it frm dexter's mouth , mot urs. . but i didnt take it to heart. . if u tink back, u even continued to go out w his harley gang rides n stuff n did i ever blame u or treat u so cold?!?!?! did i ever? i didnt feel dat gd for awhile but so long as u were hapie, i understand its jux fate. .

if onli u cld jux for tis once, tink n c tings in a broader manner. .


i dunoe hw to salvage tis ting. . maybe if u tink im realli a bitch betraying u. . no choice then. . not bcox im admitting dat im one. . but its bcox I NOE I M NOT LIKE JENICE SAW. . u cool dwn n retink abt it urself one dae. .

im sorie i made u upset smehw. . if u tink ure e onli one. . ure jux wrong. .

its been like so long since i found smeone dat finally treat me rite. .at least for nw. . but of cox w/o ur blessing, its gona be damn hard to proceed w watever. .

jux hope we wun fail tis test . . maybe not nw, but maybe smetime lata. .

im sorie . .

An AnGeL

Last nite. . 30th may was one of e most beautiful moments in moi life. . after so long. .

since sun, he has been giving me morning calls everydae, picking me up frm work every nite by cab, making sure i haf moi meals everydae. .

n naturally, tings developed between us. .

we had a long talk last nite. .he noes all e shit im into n he's gona get by entering moi shit life. . but it doesnt seem to matter to him anymore. . he finally told me e truth on y he was so against me n e two of em. . 1) he knew (A) doesnt like me . . 2) he doesnt wan (B) to treat me like a fling. . he told me he's oreadi told (B) to back off me. . (n is dat y, (B) hasnt called me for e whole wk?

i feel kinda touched. . it starts to shake me up. . wake me up alil. . y wld a normal fren be so worked up n so protective of moi feelings? to take e risk to fall out w his partner, his best fren?
all these while. .

has he been moi angel all these while?

im so afraid. . i told him im so afraid i'd fall deep into tis n then for him to realise its against his own principles. . but he assured me he wun. . n dat makes it even scarier. . of cox if he realli wun at e end of e dae, it'd be a hapie ending. . but if it happens, i'd be even more hurt. .

for so long, i havent found smeone who respects me n dotes me so much. . we spent e whole nite chatting, watching movie, eating n dats all. . no hanky panky n stuff cox he said he will respect me n resist himself. .

r all these too beautiful to be true? he's off to gold coast. . n im missing him so badly. . i tot i wldnt hear from him. . but :)

let's hope everyting will turn out fine between us. .

i noe e route is not gona be dat easy .. cox too many parties involved. . moi fren, his frens. .

but we've made up our mind, n i hope we can go thru tis together. .

daddy's bdae. . hapie dream!

it's daddy's bdae todae. .

ixit a coincidence dat i had a v.gd dream todae. . .

i dreamt it was daddy's bdae too. . n it was a hapie family's outing. .

me, mummy, daddy n yi ma ma. . it was so nice. . mummy waited for me to pack moi bag, n off we went to sentosa. .

i wasnt tinking of mummy n yi ma ma at all e nite before. . hw isit dat i cld haf such a beautiful dream. .

n then it made me realise. . perhaps. . afterall, mummy has alwix been ard us. .

A dOg tAkEs aFtEr ItS oWnEr..???

is e myth not a myth but a fact?

todae let's tok abt luckie..as much as i hope she's not taking after me or I am not taking after her. . u guys do e judging...


she's got small eyes
she's black by nature
she's super noisy..love to bark dae n nite
she's v.protective of herself. . doesnt like pple to get too close to her. . for e.g. she growls when u wana hug her
she gets jealous v.easily
she growls at michael whenever he wans to get near me
she walks away if michael comes near me
she's v.stubborn. .e more u wana ask her to 'shake hand', e more she doesnt wana do it
she's not afraid of pain.
she refuse to listen


omg...sighz...smetimes i realli wish im more like michael but but but. .. it seems dat. . . .



wat do u tink?

DeAr mR Dj aka Darren Joe

Its Been 4 yrs since we tok n met. . i received an unexpected msg dat he was coming back to singapore for a few daes. .

so glad im still being remembered. . definitely wanted to take e chance to mit up n apologise. .

supp to haf dinner, but i stupidly waited for 1/2 for him to call me, then realising dat i was supp to go to his shop n lk for him. . by e time i went, he wasnt there. he waited 1/2 for me n tot i wasnt gona turn up. . so he went for a bite. .

i told moiself, i hafta make sure tis time round we mit n catch up. . to haf a brand new start in our frenship. . n so i waited for him to close his shop n we went for drinks. .

he still remembered everyting between us. . frm hw and where we met. . frm hw he used to walk me hme frm wherever we were . . to having lunch either at ngee ann or sim (cox he was still a young lecturer back then) . . n of cox to me seeing him in liquid rm when i was w weelee, n runnin away frm him like he's a stalker. . dats e worst incident dat ever happened n he cant forget till nw :(

his mandarin has indeed improved alot..we asked abt each other's family. . each other's lives. . then i realised 4yrs .. wow! so many tings haf indeed happened. .

tis chap is realli smeone worth keeping beside, be it a fren, a close fren, a partner . . watsover. . he's one of e few guys dat i like dat prob treated me rite. . onli simplicity between us. . no tryin to be intimate before anyting else n stuff. .

anw jux wana sae im realli happie to haf found back one last fren dat ive been missing out on after weelee's incident. .

ive told him ive since then, learnt to treasure and appreciate frens ard me. . n i hope he understands dat that was moi form of apology to him as well. .

jux a tot...inspired by shaun

met shaun a few daes ago. . we were chatting n he reminded me smeting which i moiself haf longed forgotten abt it. . he asked me abt dewey n i . .

suddenly, i recalled im 27 nxt yr n he's 28. . and he said to me 2yrs ago, if im 27, he's 28 n we're still single, he'll marry me ahahahaha. . . still rem he said dat to me cox he asked if i was ready to marry him back then. . ahahaha

then i tot. . hw time flies n hw tings changed. .

if todae, i were to remind dewey abt wat he'd said n wat we'd agreed back then, i tink we'll both laugh till we drop. . e silly us back then. . . keke


u noe pple alwix sae whenever one person is at his lowest period, most upset period in life and runs into lil problems, he'll alwix turn to e person whom he can rely on. . then moi question is, does tis person u alwix wana rely on oso e one dat u hold closest to ur heart too?

when smeone in ur family passed away
when lil tings liek ur gum is bleeding n u nid to lk for a dentist
like when u plan to do tings like putting on braces, changing your image, cutting ur hair
like when u wana change a car etc

smetimes i feel, dewey n i, we tend to rely on each other too much . . so much so it smehw alwix tend to affect our partners. .

but at e same time, e tot of putting both of us together as an item will alwix give us a freaky feeling, esp for him. . n then we'll both jux laugh it off. .

n then i'll wonder, dat kinda laughter we both haf, ixit a laughter of fear or a laughter of denying each other .. keke . . watever e case. .

thks shaunie, for reminding me abt the silly promise he n i made back then...i shall go disturb him n update u on wat his reaction is. . keke

v.DaE - sWeEt MeMoRieS

todae is v.dae. .

so nice to catch him online. . chat quite a fair bit. . n it was nice catching up. . rekindling e gd memories we used to haf. . n will forever remain in our hearts. .

e silliest n sweetest proposal he typed (literally a proposal)

moi old mobile number - he calls it e chatline ahaha n he said if i had charged 75cents, i'd haf been rich!

moi new/existing number - i changed it BCOX Of him n tis number will most likely stay for gd

e sweet gd mornings we had

e rav4

but i guex its true. . we take onli e gd feelings and memories but dats abt it. . gd tings alwix hafta come to an end. . our lives move on for future partners' wellbeing. .im glad we are still frens . . still full of shit when we tok. .

well. . e same goes to u, ure e best dat ive ever had . .

hapie v.dae :)