another dae of confusion

been tinking and of cox everydae i haf been tinking god noes since when abt tis:

am i realli dat picky?
am i realli such a perfectionist where i realli cant tolerate jux a single human error, but i moiself am full of errors too?
when can i noe wat i wan in life, in love?
when can i find moi mr rite?
or there has been e mr rite smewhere close but smehw due to moi perfectionsm, whoever is the 'he' jux doesnt feel like he's e rite one?
will i ever get married?
will i stay loyal after marriage?
will moi partner stay loyal after marriage?

at e end of e dae, who doesnt wan to find smeone to settle dwn for e rest of his/her life? ok, not at least for me. . . i realli do wana find smeone rite to settle dwn with.....but y do i alwix end up not being able to (whether its due to moi own choice or e other party's choice).

i mean i dun enjoy alwix jumping in n out of r/s or wat ricky defines as me victimising pple. . . and/or in ricky's context, being victimised by pple. . . . .