i cant believe it

i cant believe wat has jux happened these 2 daes. . . i mean. . its like did god read moi blog?

few daes back i wrote memoirs of baby rav. . . sayin i hope i can find smeone dat replace all e gd memories. . n there we are, e nxt guy dat gave me e closest feelings back then suddenly jux call me up early in e morning on sundae telling me stuff like:

since u haf not been coming up to hk n haf no plans as yet to come, im comin back instead. . .
i jumped out of moi bed. . literally. . n i cldnt slp after e conversation we continued on msn. .

i mean, he's realli like weelee. . y? cox he's been v.aggressive, been asking me to go up to lk for him, been asking me to follow him travel n work (even to e extent of giving moi job). . been wanting to take me to trips whenever he's back to singapore or haf a whole block of leave to clear. . telling me he realli liked me alot over e past 1 yr (i dun rem how long), wans to settle dwn n stuff. . . alwix getting angry w me dat im being stuck up, take him for granted during tis period. .

y similar to weelee - he was v.v.pushy when we frens, alwix wanting to be together, pushing me for a yr or so before we got together. . n then when we were together, v.v.pushy asking me wana marry him or not n stuff. . .

similar to weelee cox when i was dating tis guy. . indeed, it was a v.enjoyable period(thou onli like a few mths). . like he tk care of everyting else when we were together. . kept up w moi hyperactiveness n stuff. .

similar to weelee cox oso. . jux left me for another girl jux like dat. . .

onli difference, weelee till date, never admitted dat he left me for another girl, but tis guy did rite frm e moment he chose to return to his ex gf. . n tis guy did apologise. . . even till date. . .

BUT STILL!!!! they both gave me e SAME feeling of being like in 7th heaven n then one dae jux make me drop.. onli difference, i realli loved weelee alot! n tis guy, maybe the word love wasnt there yet cox im alwix on a lil defensive mode of feelings during e first few mths. .

Now, this guy is coming back on fri. . . HELP!!!!! im so stressed up. . cox ive been telling him i tink we nid to sort tings out n tok tings over but not on msn or over e phone, but it jxu came too sudden tat its tis wkend dat he's gona be back. . . .

i dun even noe hw to tok to him nw. . .

smebody tell me wat to do, wat to sae. . .


mr neighbor. . . u havent heard e latest conversation i had w tis guy. . u onli heard abt sundae morning. . when u hear abt tis latest conversation, hw will u react? i dunoe y, im jux curious to noe. .

cox u cld be dat closer one after these two guys. . but then again, ITS SO SCARIE. . COX UR MOI NEIGHBOR. . . n dun sae mun mun, even i moiself will faint . . . ahaha. . .

besides, u n i both still haf dat bet on u returning to ur ex. . . ahhhhh...EX again. . .

k, suddenly i feel, when can i ever not face such problems? jux nid a simple life, simple guy. . .

god, if u read moi blog, maybe u tell me hw? i tink god mux be shaking his head oso. . tinking y is tis girl like dat, ask for A, give her A, then ask A+B, but when give her A+B, she requests if she can haf A+B-C(e bad tings dat comes along w it) = asking for e impossible or a simple word alwix defined by dewey as PERFECTIONIST.....

HELP!!!! ahhhh....

gona slp. . too stressed, so v.slpy. .